The After 'roast' Party

For all those who watched the ‘AIB Knockout’, it was frigging awesome…..
Why do you ask??
Because these sporty people had the balls to demonstrate something that ‘we’, the ‘citizens of India’ like to do indoors i.e gossip/back-biting/bitching whatever you may name it.
And for a few of the ‘critics’ who criticised it, I have no comments because they demonstrate the fact why our country’s literacy rate is so low and why we are still a ‘developing’ country for the past 60  fuckin years!!!!
But, I pity the ‘actors’ of the country who raised their voice and pitched against this roast.
Firstly, dude, I may not be an actor but I earn my living by being ‘me’. These buggers act before the camera, portray someone else whose role they might not be even eligible to play in real life, and earn money. Well they live in the world of hypocrisy and so, if someone shows them the light, their skin burns-similar to vampirism.
So, for the politicians who have commented against this roast, I have no comments since they are beyond that and don’t qualify to be commented upon, the actors who commented upon the roast as a ‘disgrace’ to our community and tradition and culture, I would like to request them to only work for movies which portray ‘holistic’ themes from next time if they have so much problem with people showing guts in front of 4000 people for a good cause. These actors will act as some random xyz shit and get crores of rupees and declare in front of the media how ‘hard’ they worked.
You frigging morons, you worked hard to showcase someone else because you are not worth anything outside that role. You will be known for that xyz shitty role you played until your next movie comes out. Come out of that, you are nothing.
So, before you comment, do recall that through this means of entertainment, a lot of money was raised which was donated to charity. So see through the bright side before shoving up your finger into someone else’s behind.

Ciao……

Filling in the 'VOIDS'

'waiting for the ripper to come and fetch,
Waiting for the end, kiss my death,
A thousand curses is not worth to die,
When a heart is all that beats to live'

This is a part of a lyrics that I had worked on. I had written it in a general manner with respect to a third party incident that I had witnessed. Though it didn't affect me in any way, I put myself in that person's shoes and thus, words started pouring out and I constructed verses after verses.
I had been asked to explain the meaning of what those meant because some couldn't relate to it and some just thought of it as crap. I don't give a damn to how anyone interprets it but yes, I would definitely react when someone says that this is 'meaningless'..because lets get this straight.... I am not a kid who writes to rhyme. I write when words flow out of me and each set of lyrics I write define a moment I have been a part of - directly or indirectly.
So for all those who thought that this is a cake walk and carries no meaning, I would advice them to shove their pointing fingers up their behind and understand what I am about to explain:

The above four lines I opened this post with basically imply into one simple sentence: 'follow your heart and forget the mob'....
Elaborating:
People will advice you, pay heed.
But there will also be people who will constantly remind you of how many times you failed before you achieved a simple success. Live for the people who appreciate your success and darken the failure instead of lending ears to the people who highlight your failure before giving you credit for your success.
It happens that when we listen to so much negativity, we tend to lose hope and consider ourself as a permanent failure and not even try to build up to our eyes. So, these set of words convey the message that you may just want to go away from all the criticism and live at solitude BUT before you consider it, think of the fact that why waste your life for 1000 stupid failures that people have reminded you of when you have 1 success that can overshadow them if you just strengthen it as much as you want and as much as you can. Success may not be big or small. As long as you know that you have succeeded and in times to come, you can maximize it to the fullest, don't give a damn to what others say....just do what you are doing and let your deeds shut their mouths up once and for all and you can reminisce of the fact that you have vanquished your foes until your last breath.....
Thats what these lines meant..

the dust settles

We try to be strong at times when we know that our strength is not enough to get us through a situation.
Situations will never be according to our convenience, it is we who have to try and convert that state into the nearest possible convenient state so that we can focus on it and get affinated towards it and work on resolving it. This applies for every situation.
Life is like wise. Even in this purgatory, we will face situations that will make us feel rebellious, try to break us down but it is then that we should turn the tables and face the music, start liking it and eventually change it to a more convenient tune.
A few days back, a normal day dawned, the usual routine followed and life was going on in a monotonous manner when a dark cloud built up and was getting darker.....
All that was left was to walk into the storm, face the challenge and embrace it such that the challenge became a fantasy and I would be able to conquer it....
So it began, the situation cribbed in, the intensity grew and the pressure ascended but as time passed, I adapted to the situation, created my own comfort zone and finally the storm broke into a clear blue sky and I accomplished my goal.....

I reached the summit and below me stood all that I had left amidst the barren ground....

'as the dust settles' became a reality......

Ciao...

The "confusion" dilemma

Before you even start thinking that there is something wrong with my “vocabulary”,I would suggest you go through the document and then you will realise that it does make sense as this piece is related to a confusion within a confusion which causes a confusion such that the confusion confuses you as to what are you confused about….
So here it is….
It so happens that sometimes you make a mistake but not something that leads to disaster but it leads to moments of absolute fun for others and makes you a silent listener for the next few moments.What exactly happens is that you regret regarding the statement you made or the thing you said but at the same time you enjoy the consequences even though you are the one being grilled but this grilling is unlike the serious ones.This is the one where all you can do is silently laugh and hear the other person laughing their hearts out while they exaggerate what you said and at the same time repeatedly remind you how much “fun” in the conversation is going on.
So the title refers to the state where I could not figure out whether I was regretting the fact that I had said something which had lead to this “grilling’ or I was regretting the grilling because I was enjoying the grilling to a certain extent and at the same time glad at the fact that I had said something stupid because it led to this atmosphere which was filled with laughter for a couple of hours.Hence the regret was basically because I was at the grilling end but the glee was there because of the vibe that had been created.Thus there was a contradiction occurring  simultaneously but eventually it got over and everyone involved in this had a good time for a couple of hours.
  So it was a state of confusion within a confusion or the confusion dilemma.

More to come….
Ciao… 

voids and fillers

Wow.....
Happiness comes in packets......is it???
Not in this case...
It so happens that if the pessimist part dominates,its hard to get over it...but I did get over it and now what follows is as follows....
I know I wanted something but wasn't aware of what I desired,So I did not pay much heed to it and life moved on.It so happened that life took a turn and under strange circumstances a void seemed to creep in at every curve of life.That was when I got a bit frustrated and was anxious to know what the void was about but couldn't figure it out. I did not give up but did not dig further into the matter and let life move on. But life had some answers to give and I finally got those answers to the unavoidable "void" which I was trying to fill and once I got the solution, I did not waste time in trying to fill the void up and so I advanced and took the next step and now somewhere I feel the void is filled and I feel 'complete'....
It took some time but it did happen and I got the answers....
The next bit will be how I got the answers.....
Till then...
 ciao....

Ecliptic Cruciate -part II

It must have happened that at times when you meet failure,the feeling of atheism takes over you and you feel that all the ‘prayers’ or the belief has gone into waste and life has planned all the misfortunes for you and to keep you in the darkness until it seems brighter than the light.Those are the times that the highest aggressiveness takes control and at that moment anything crazy will attract us…..

Similarly the music was there for our lyrics but what we were missing was the lyrics.Nothing was coming in to meet that level of energy or that level of insanity such that we could feel that the words fit into the song.So we just waited for it to happen naturally and not force the words out of us.

A few weeks later it so happened that someone did meet with a  failure and it was that point that the failure could not be shared because of the fear of being mocked at by everyone who would know that the attempt to pursue something went in vain and so that anger,that deceased faith,that false belief took over but there was no one around with whom it could be shared and thus  words started pouring out and they were not just words,they were literally a sword ripping every belief that one had into shreds and it kept on flowing and after literally hours of shredding,there lied on the table written in a piece of paper 6 verses of frustration.

Just to give you a clue of how deep the level of frustration was,here is  an extract of the lyrics:

“The vengeance they seek and the prices all paid,

With the crimson stain painted on the blade,

And the screams resounding in every dream,

A life without fear is all I say”

           

Once this set of lyrics was presented,everyone was in shock and awe due to the darkness inflicted by the lyrics and the anger stored in every word and all were thinking about how to make a sound for this set of words (since it had been weeks,the tone composed earlier was almost not in anyone’s mind).So now all thought of giving justice to this set of lyrics because it seemed really genuine and what we were looking forward to when all of a sudden we recalled that we had a music composed which was searching for a set of aggressive lyrics and so we played the music and demoed it along with the words we had and it seemed like the music was made for this set of words and no other lyrics could bring justice to the music and vice versa

Thus finally we had a full demo prepared that had a “death metal” vibe to it and it justified the name we gave it….

“ECLIPTIC CRUCIATE”

Thus ended a chapter which we had given up on almost ever being completed.

More awaits..

Ciao….

Wandering alone,many thoughts can cross one's mind with respect to his personal life,professional life or any other life or with respect to what is he/she doing with his life.
Those are the moments that help a person realize whether that  which direction is his life heading towards and how will that shape his upcoming life or his upcoming days because one shouldn't have a finger at the end to point at anyone as we are all equally guilty for making and shaping our life but its the human nature not to accept one's fault and always be ready to blame someone else for their defeat.
So....how did we get here.....
One fine evening,the weather was such that the pouring would start any moment.The environment was crimson shaded and i was standing below it which seemed like i was standing amidst the upcoming wrath of nature.Staring at that scenery i tried to reflect it on my own life as in who am i in comparision to that wrath.Am i ready to face it head to head or do i duck out and save myself???
At that point i realized that i am a small pebble amidst the ocean who will get washed away with every tide that runs over me and that made me realize where i stand.
So its high time,a new journey about to be embarked and i am ready to prepare myself for this upcoming battle which is also known as "life" such that i have answer to every question that it asks me and i never have to even think about pointing a finger out to anyone but myself and i should make sure that these words do not apply to me....

                                                                 "You're guilty all the same
                                                                   Too sick to be ashamed
                                                                You want to point your finger
                                                              But there's no one else to blame"    
                                                                                           (linkin park:guilty all the same feat. Rakim)