Cursed Valentine II

Well, the first part that is Cursed Valentine was written way back in 2009 and it was the first time that I had written lyrics that were pretty different from what I conventionally wrote back then.
Things changed after that. I strayed from the conventional way and preferred expressing everything in the way they deserved to be expressed. That way I felt I gave justice to the vibe under which the songs were written... until my next project.
The next project that I worked on was called "Renaissance". Well, as the name suggested, I got back to the conventional way and wrote stuff that were insane and aggro-rock based. Following that I worked on "Applied Conditions". This project was a small one and consisted of ballads. It was a very soothing project.
Well, after that  I took a drastic turn. In terms of humanity :towards the worse, in terms of writing: turned out in my favour. I wrote a very dark project. Actually, I surprised myself on completing it. It had a different level of darkness and it was unlike any other project I had worked on - "Engraved Damnation". To give you a hint, one of the ideas that I worked on was named "Hell's a reflection away". It was a project which I wouldn’t prefer looking or listening to at the hour of the dead i.e 3am - 4am.
"When the divide" was the next project I worked on. Well, this was a very happy go lucky project. It had been a while since I had written typical rock songs and so, I stuck to writing simple rock songs.
After walking through all these projects, it was exhausting when I had to think which direction to go towards with respect to the next project. And so, I just left it to "fate" and let things happen their own sweet way.
Sometime later, I started writing. Whatever came to my mind. At first I thought I was taking the conventional way. But I didn’t stray from the process I had started following and just continued writing. After a while, I sat back and just read through what I had written. Well, I surprised myself again. I had not written anything like that before (or so I thought). This entire work had a very dark and personal theme - unlike anything I had written. Yes, it was dark but it didn’t have the darkness of  "Engraved Damnation". This darkness was more of personal and each idea could be related to the common folk. I was just wondering that how did this come to be. I mean, I had not expected this. Not that I was disappointed, I was left blank. Because just as I had thought that all roads had been exhausted, a new road came to be.
Then came the twist.
I was just walking through all that I had worked on till date and I saw that the underlying theme of the ongoing project took inspirations from a project I had worked on 6 years earlier. Cursed Valentine was a personal record but 6 years ago, the personal feelings were different. What made me angry back then was different from what made me angry now.
So, the template was of a similar plate but the material was totally different. Cursed Valentine was aggressive and personal. This material was personal, aggressive and most importantly - it was very dark. Because it had a long distant relative, I thought it would be right to call it "Cursed Valentine II"  because had I written Cursed Valentine now, it would have sounded this way.
Anyways, back to the process. I had around 15-20 ideas ready to record and then select the top 12. This didn’t happen. I started recording but by the time I had recorded 5 ideas, I wrote 2-3 more which were equally good and belonged to the same family. This process kept on happening until I had recorded 10 songs. By the time I had finished recording vocals for 10 tracks, the count of lyrics rose from 20 to 32. I gave up!!!!
I finalized that until I am exhausted of ideas with respect to this project, I wont proceed. And so, the working process continued.
A few weeks, actually months later, the threshold had been reached. I stopped at 48. It didn’t end there. Now came the difficult part - selecting the best. I had 48 tracks which shared the same parent - "Cursed Valentine II" but only 12 could be adopted. That was almost like I had to dump 75% of the stuff.
Well, it was tuff…. Very tuff…..
But after weeks of filtering, I could get from 48 to 18 ideas and it was impossible to get lesser than that. These 18 were the best tracks I had written till now and each of them could be a story of any person across the globe. Since I liked going off the edge with respect to every project I worked  on, I decided to keep the 18 and divide them into two parts based on the theme they shared. That wasn’t very difficult.
Now, the recording began. To be honest, out of the 10 tracks I had recorded earlier, only 3 made it to the top 18.
Out here, I would like to be specific with respect to one track - "Turned into waste". This is important as it would explain how difficult it was to get this record over with.
This was a track I had written while back. It had a very gloomy vibe and was a very dark track. I recorded it the very next day on my phone and trust me when I tell this, the melody of the track is to date on of my favourite. The problem happened when I went to record this in the studio. I must have recorded this atleast 15 times but not even once could I get the vibe that I had captured while recording it on my phone. I mean, I would record and listen to it and I would find it good but when I would compare it with the recording on the phone, the latter would sound much better and I would walk back to the booth to re record it. After trying to record it for 15 times, I gave up and finally I got the phone recording mixed and filtered and that made it to the original mix.
After completing the recording, I listened to the mix and I was shocked. Generally I have one or two tracks which are of the metal core base. This project had six metal core tracks and each of them were blistering, dark and well, insanely personal. But after listening to the project from the beginning to the end, it was the greatest feeling. It was a project that at a point of time had lost track and I had no idea when it would get completed.  Well, finally it did get completed and I can confidently say that this was the most difficult, out of the way and definitely the best project I worked on.
Well, just as a teaser as to how dark the project was  - one of the track is named "Antichrist".
But I had fun. Because I broke all  the boundaries which I had set up for myself and totally ripped the process I had been following all this while  and paved a new direction for the projects I may likely work on in the coming future.

Ciao

Let the Beast laugh

Loving something or having an affection towards something isn't a crime. After all we do call ourselves a democratic nation. But the sad part is when people judge you and try to define you by what you like.
I mean, just because I like playing with toys doesn’t mean I am a retard dude!!!
Well.. This blog isnt just about toys. Its about how the world of music categorized people.
I am a fan of the heavy stuff. I like listening to metal core, heavy metal, death metal, black metal, hard rock. Well, there are tons of "sub-genres "within these but all of them revolve around these genres and so, they pretty much make up the list. Now, I don’t listen to a song just because its heavy. I have my playlist and it has from the heaviest of shit to the most soothing song one may have come across. I like music. And so, any good song (which i find good) makes way to my playlist. Now, growing up listening to rock music has created its own section in my brain and whenever I need to google for some new music, I prefer googling the heavier stuff more than the softer ones.
When it comes to black metal - the genre that all know as the genre for the antichrist, its totally a false misconception.
Black metal artists are humans - like us. The simple reason that they are known as black metal artists are because they are not followers of any deity. They create music just like any other artist with heavy riffs and powerful lyrics which mostly do not revolve around religion. Its just the path they chose to follow which defines their genre for them.
Yes, I wont deny that there are artists who have lyrics strongly focussing on religious stuffs but at the end of the day, they are stating their point.
Yes, you may wonder why am I defining this genre. I will get to it.
What is the work of music? To express emotions right???
Now, arent these people humans??? They do the same. Just like a pop artist sings a jingle to express his emotion, they do the same in their own way.
Now I come to the point as to why am I talking about this specific genre.
Listening to black metal isnt a crime. Even black metal bands do come up with good music. And the most important part for a few ignorant people : "LISTENING TO BLACK METAL DOES NOT MAKE ME A SATANIST".
Frankly, I am not bothered by comments but when I hear such ridiculous statements which can be quoted as "you listen to black metal right, you are a satanist"….
Brother, I may love the corpse paint, I may love the riffs, I may love the artwork, may even love the weird stuffs they do while performing live but that doesn’t make me one of them. It just makes me a person who appreciates their stuff just like the hundred and thousands of others around the world. I don’t mind being judged. But I do mind being judged in a illogical way. Illogical reasoning only proves how far your head is up your own arse.
Open your mind up and respect the choices each individual makes around you and instead of defining their characteristic based on their choice, let them be. No body needs your validation to know themselves.
The world has enough mirrors to reflect reality.
Summing up, yes I listen to black metal, yes I have a fetish towards drawing apocalyptic caricatures, I love wild and aggressive live performances. But I am not one of them. I am a normal human being who just knows what he likes listening to, drawing and watching and respect that or shut the fuck up and scat…..

Ciao…..

The Bitch - Goddess of success

What the fudge could that possibly mean!!!!

Have the people "discovered" a new deity ? Do we have one more "reason" to blame our failure??
Hell no!
Life - for some its unfair and for some, well, we term it as 'lucky'. That doesn’t make us any better. We are a breed of species incapable of accepting our mistakes and love to dump our failures on someone else. The more reasons, the better. At every stage of life, there will be someone who will make it through and reach the top and achieve success and crush the dreams of others. Not all games can have two winners.
So, it’s a human nature - we may cherish the victory someone has achieved by crushing our dreams but deep down we feel sad, rebellious and wait for the perfect moment to get back and prove to our counterpart that he may have won the battle but he still has the war to win.
Success comes with a lot of added features. It gives you a sack to carry around the reasons you may hear from others, reasons pertaining to how you reached your goal by 'luck' or by an 'unconventional ' method or a hilarious one being  by 'mistake'.
You worthless morons!! Success does not come simply by luck or by mistake. It comes only after you have strived towards it and despite what you say, the guy who has it, knows how he got it.
Yes, being defeated and learning from your mistakes is good. But this shouldn’t trigger a revenge in you. You shouldn’t work to be better "than him". You should work to be better and just give in your best and before you know it, everyone standing in your way will be irrelevant and you will reach the goal you deserve.
But that’s not the case. Defeat gives birth to the heel side of you and all you can think of is dragging the person down from the place which you 'feel' you deserve. You will use everything you can, every resource, every unconventional method and finally you will get what you want because you customized your path of success and finally, all that you say to the one you slayed is:

"Payback's a bitch"…..

You didn’t work hard to succeed. You did all that you could just to pull your nemesis down and sabotage his deserved place by building yours just so that you could give him a payback. That’s all that mattered. What he achieved was success. What you achieved was payback and that’s what you worshipped. You reached where he was but you didn’t succeed. You got your payback, you got your revenge. You showed him that payback is the actual vengeance, the actual act of 'hard work', the actual work done to get what you 'deserve'. That’s what you strived for. Basically you worked hard, strived for the bitch….
So, isn't the bitch - a goddess of success??