Wandering alone,many thoughts can cross one's mind with respect to his personal life,professional life or any other life or with respect to what is he/she doing with his life.
Those are the moments that help a person realize whether that  which direction is his life heading towards and how will that shape his upcoming life or his upcoming days because one shouldn't have a finger at the end to point at anyone as we are all equally guilty for making and shaping our life but its the human nature not to accept one's fault and always be ready to blame someone else for their defeat.
So....how did we get here.....
One fine evening,the weather was such that the pouring would start any moment.The environment was crimson shaded and i was standing below it which seemed like i was standing amidst the upcoming wrath of nature.Staring at that scenery i tried to reflect it on my own life as in who am i in comparision to that wrath.Am i ready to face it head to head or do i duck out and save myself???
At that point i realized that i am a small pebble amidst the ocean who will get washed away with every tide that runs over me and that made me realize where i stand.
So its high time,a new journey about to be embarked and i am ready to prepare myself for this upcoming battle which is also known as "life" such that i have answer to every question that it asks me and i never have to even think about pointing a finger out to anyone but myself and i should make sure that these words do not apply to me....

                                                                 "You're guilty all the same
                                                                   Too sick to be ashamed
                                                                You want to point your finger
                                                              But there's no one else to blame"    
                                                                                           (linkin park:guilty all the same feat. Rakim)

ECLIPTIC CRUCIATE- part 1

Three windows were open….

One for composing,one for mixing and one for writing but all of them were empty and it seemed like I had nothing to fill in that void or so it seemed at that point. But at that point who was to know that what awaited ??

Random riffs were being generated along with ill noises which could literally damage the ear but then it seemed that the same ‘ill’ noise if played at a lower tempo such that it doesn’t dominate the music but sounds like a small element with respect to the  context of the entire track, wouldn’t sound unappealing but instead would add a bit of a flavour. So it began with the track building initially from rough riffs to a more clean rigid riff section with a layer of the same odd noise but this time tuned to sound like music and then the drum parts came in along with the remaining guitar stuff.

Now tracks were there but they all needed to sound like they are generated from the single thread and so now the composing part began with the first window getting occupied  with each sound being complied with the next one such that all of them sounded like they are cousins.

Following this began the mixing section where each sound was levelled up or levelled down so that the music would be pleasant rather than NOISE and that was tedious but was achieved.

Finally came the writing part as in writing lyrics and that was the part which would define that the melody composed is a good melody or a good song and so now began the part where the listening was done repeatedly to the composed music to catch the vibe, energy and  the theme of it so that appropriate words would come out and it was at that time that the frustration started growing and the feeling dominated of something good being KILLED IN DARKNESS or simply being ditched in a wrong way with respect to the music made because of not being able to find the right words to fit into that music and thus came the name “ECLIPTIC CRUCIATE”.

Eventually the lyrics was done but that’s a whole new story but to give a hint, two lines of the lyrics are given below which may give   a brief idea of what started cooking…

“A thousand curses is not worth to die,

When a heart is all that beats to live”

More awaits…

Till then..

Ciao….

some stories you tell.....some  you dont.....

not all stories that are a part of our life is worth sharing or even worth remembering but this story is (atleast for me)  worth a lot and worth sharing....

At certain points in life we come across people who will appreciate the "darker" side of ours and go along with even if they don't like it so that they can get what they want whether it be attention,love or whatever it is they want out of us but  there will also be people across whom we will come who will unknowingly remove/extract that darker side of us such that one fine day without knowing the light will attract us more than the shadows  and we will like facing the light and dread the dark....

Being a computer science student it is worth putting it in terms of coded words...

a system will come across various processes but there may be one process which,after entering the system will not leave the system until the system "crashes" and once inside the system will end all the "queuing" mechanisms with respect to the system such that no other process would be affinated by the system....

yes..this is something or rather sort of a teaser that happened most recently and found it worth sharing.....

courtesy for the person who unsuccessfully SCARED me,partially succeeded in IRRITATING me but most importantly successfully SAW through me or rather READ me....

more to come...

till then...

ciao.... 

 

Original MAYHEM, CADAVER Members Join Forces In ORDER

Original MAYHEM drummer Kjetil "Manheim" Haraldsson, original MAYHEM vocalist Eirik "Messiah" Nordheim, original CADAVER bassist René Jansen and CADAVER mainman/guitarist Anders "Neddo" Odden have joined forces in a new project called ORDER. The new band's mission statement is simply "to restore order and celebrate Pure Fucking Armageddon for all!"

for more info,visit:http://www.blabbermouth.net/news/original-mayhem-cadaver-members-join-forces-in-order/

on the verge of a break

I am done with this part

With the processing of your thoughts

I could never realise

How far I had gone

With the responses deafening

The thoughts simply shrinking

While I m always on the move

And there is no stopping

Chorus;

Life has always given me’

more than what I wanted

and I always embraced it

but never expected

that I will one day be stabbed

like this in this state

tonight I beg my life

I ask you to rub the hate

Once I had started on a journey

I had never planned

The roads opened up for me

And I kept moving on

So when I stopped

I had come over too far ahead

There is no turning back now

Darkness has crept back in

Chorus;

Life has always given me’

more than what I wanted

and I always embraced it

but never expected

that I will one day be stabbed

like this in this state

tonight I beg my life

I ask you to rub the hate

No,I don’t want answers

I want my tears in return

Every drop I shed gave you a laugh

And doomed my fate in this

No,I am not done

It hasn’t started yet

Its still on the verge of a break

Prepare to get defeated……

Chorus;

Life has always given me’

more than what I wanted

and I always embraced it

but never expected

that I will one day be stabbed

like this in this state

tonight I beg my life

I ask you to rub the hate

servitude

Another long year,dwell in here,
Serve you again,live in fear.

Enslaved again,my punishment,
There’s no escape,no help I get,

Pre chorus:
Listen to the loudness,
And respond to them,
A delay would cost me more than
I could regret…

Chorus:
A servitude commited,
I cannot turn my back,
Promises were broken,
You did not forget

Where do I stay,on your way,
To respond,to your every say.

Guilty I am,where do I stand,
No land beneath,I plead to you and,


Pre chorus:
Listen to the loudness,
And respond to them,
A delay would cost me more than
I could regret…

Chorus:
A servitude commited,
I cannot turn my back,
Promises were broken,
You did not forget

Anything,any harm,
Everything,every bruise,
All the tears,all the lies,
Are the promises I didn’t abide,
And I am left with no alibiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!

Another long year,dwell in here,
Serve you again,live in fear.


Chorus:
A servitude commited,
I cannot turn my back,
Promises were broken,
You did not forget

from peace to pieces

I am a broken man in a desolate world,
And every day I spend in this loneliness,
A brief moment filled with desires.
Comes like a dream and breaks  with it…..

An illusion builds up around your eyes,
And you think this distance will keep me
But there you die like me everyday,
Still you stay away……

ALL THE MEMORIES WITHIN,
THE HAPPY TIMES ARE EMBEDDED,
BUT STILL ALL I HAVE ARE MEMORIES,
ALL I HAVE ARE MEMORIES….

Chorus:
I was at peace ,
when you broke me to pieces,
And I crumbled all over you,
Shattered,
because you had promised,
And you couldn’t let it go…..

Sweeping through the pages of the incomplete dream,
I thought of a lifetime but its ended like this,
Now all that I have are memories,
And an anger building up against him…

WHAT WAS WRONG THAT YOU DID THIS?
WHY DID I END UP THIS WAY?
IT WAS A LIFE I HAD DREAMT OF…
NOW WE BOTH DIE EVERYDAY…..
WHY ARE YOU IMPORTANT THAN ME?
WHY DID YOU CREATE THIS DISTANCE?
ANSWER ME I WANT AN ANSWER!!
OR GIVE ME WHAT YOU TOOK AWAY!!!!!!!!!

Chorus:
I was at peace ,
when you broke me to pieces,
And I crumbled all over you,
Shattered,
because you had promised,
And you couldn’t let it go…..

A final glance but its not the end…
I cant live with memories,
Reminding me I had you,
Now its all empty….
BRING THAT TIME BACK!!!!!!!!
THE TIME I WANT TO HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chorus:
I was at peace ,
when you broke me to pieces,
And I crumbled all over you,
Shattered,
because you had promised,
And you couldn’t let it go…..

Finally we unite,
I feel more alive,
An answer he never gave,

And now your with me,
I don’t need these memories
Now we live everyday…….