some stories you tell.....some  you dont.....

not all stories that are a part of our life is worth sharing or even worth remembering but this story is (atleast for me)  worth a lot and worth sharing....

At certain points in life we come across people who will appreciate the "darker" side of ours and go along with even if they don't like it so that they can get what they want whether it be attention,love or whatever it is they want out of us but  there will also be people across whom we will come who will unknowingly remove/extract that darker side of us such that one fine day without knowing the light will attract us more than the shadows  and we will like facing the light and dread the dark....

Being a computer science student it is worth putting it in terms of coded words...

a system will come across various processes but there may be one process which,after entering the system will not leave the system until the system "crashes" and once inside the system will end all the "queuing" mechanisms with respect to the system such that no other process would be affinated by the system....

yes..this is something or rather sort of a teaser that happened most recently and found it worth sharing.....

courtesy for the person who unsuccessfully SCARED me,partially succeeded in IRRITATING me but most importantly successfully SAW through me or rather READ me....

more to come...

till then...

ciao.... 

 

Original MAYHEM, CADAVER Members Join Forces In ORDER

Original MAYHEM drummer Kjetil "Manheim" Haraldsson, original MAYHEM vocalist Eirik "Messiah" Nordheim, original CADAVER bassist René Jansen and CADAVER mainman/guitarist Anders "Neddo" Odden have joined forces in a new project called ORDER. The new band's mission statement is simply "to restore order and celebrate Pure Fucking Armageddon for all!"

for more info,visit:http://www.blabbermouth.net/news/original-mayhem-cadaver-members-join-forces-in-order/

on the verge of a break

I am done with this part

With the processing of your thoughts

I could never realise

How far I had gone

With the responses deafening

The thoughts simply shrinking

While I m always on the move

And there is no stopping

Chorus;

Life has always given me’

more than what I wanted

and I always embraced it

but never expected

that I will one day be stabbed

like this in this state

tonight I beg my life

I ask you to rub the hate

Once I had started on a journey

I had never planned

The roads opened up for me

And I kept moving on

So when I stopped

I had come over too far ahead

There is no turning back now

Darkness has crept back in

Chorus;

Life has always given me’

more than what I wanted

and I always embraced it

but never expected

that I will one day be stabbed

like this in this state

tonight I beg my life

I ask you to rub the hate

No,I don’t want answers

I want my tears in return

Every drop I shed gave you a laugh

And doomed my fate in this

No,I am not done

It hasn’t started yet

Its still on the verge of a break

Prepare to get defeated……

Chorus;

Life has always given me’

more than what I wanted

and I always embraced it

but never expected

that I will one day be stabbed

like this in this state

tonight I beg my life

I ask you to rub the hate

servitude

Another long year,dwell in here,
Serve you again,live in fear.

Enslaved again,my punishment,
There’s no escape,no help I get,

Pre chorus:
Listen to the loudness,
And respond to them,
A delay would cost me more than
I could regret…

Chorus:
A servitude commited,
I cannot turn my back,
Promises were broken,
You did not forget

Where do I stay,on your way,
To respond,to your every say.

Guilty I am,where do I stand,
No land beneath,I plead to you and,


Pre chorus:
Listen to the loudness,
And respond to them,
A delay would cost me more than
I could regret…

Chorus:
A servitude commited,
I cannot turn my back,
Promises were broken,
You did not forget

Anything,any harm,
Everything,every bruise,
All the tears,all the lies,
Are the promises I didn’t abide,
And I am left with no alibiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!

Another long year,dwell in here,
Serve you again,live in fear.


Chorus:
A servitude commited,
I cannot turn my back,
Promises were broken,
You did not forget

from peace to pieces

I am a broken man in a desolate world,
And every day I spend in this loneliness,
A brief moment filled with desires.
Comes like a dream and breaks  with it…..

An illusion builds up around your eyes,
And you think this distance will keep me
But there you die like me everyday,
Still you stay away……

ALL THE MEMORIES WITHIN,
THE HAPPY TIMES ARE EMBEDDED,
BUT STILL ALL I HAVE ARE MEMORIES,
ALL I HAVE ARE MEMORIES….

Chorus:
I was at peace ,
when you broke me to pieces,
And I crumbled all over you,
Shattered,
because you had promised,
And you couldn’t let it go…..

Sweeping through the pages of the incomplete dream,
I thought of a lifetime but its ended like this,
Now all that I have are memories,
And an anger building up against him…

WHAT WAS WRONG THAT YOU DID THIS?
WHY DID I END UP THIS WAY?
IT WAS A LIFE I HAD DREAMT OF…
NOW WE BOTH DIE EVERYDAY…..
WHY ARE YOU IMPORTANT THAN ME?
WHY DID YOU CREATE THIS DISTANCE?
ANSWER ME I WANT AN ANSWER!!
OR GIVE ME WHAT YOU TOOK AWAY!!!!!!!!!

Chorus:
I was at peace ,
when you broke me to pieces,
And I crumbled all over you,
Shattered,
because you had promised,
And you couldn’t let it go…..

A final glance but its not the end…
I cant live with memories,
Reminding me I had you,
Now its all empty….
BRING THAT TIME BACK!!!!!!!!
THE TIME I WANT TO HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chorus:
I was at peace ,
when you broke me to pieces,
And I crumbled all over you,
Shattered,
because you had promised,
And you couldn’t let it go…..

Finally we unite,
I feel more alive,
An answer he never gave,

And now your with me,
I don’t need these memories
Now we live everyday…….

freedom song

Chorus1:
I wanna break free from your desires,
And rise again to where I stopped………….STOPPED!!!!!

A deep wound filled with salt,
A pain more stronger within,
The painful victim repenting,
A lie had led to this.

Every smile down the street,Wrecks me down even more,
I search for a reason, to be forever gone.

Chorus:
I wanna break free from your desires,
And rise again to where I had stopped,
Start moving without a reason,
To drag me and make me gone……


A wrath I could never show,
And suffered this damnation,
A fear engraved never goes,
I am a victim and yet not gone.

A lie that had slipped,And now here I stand,
I search for a reason,But stagnant I am


Chorus:
I wanna break free from your desires,
And rise again to where I had stopped,
Start moving without a reason,
To drag me and make me gone……

A loss I could never gain,
A lie I could never hide,
Mistakes I could never mend,
Too late I realised….
I LIE DOWN on the floor,
AND REMEMBER THE PAST,
IT SWEEPS DOWN the road,
Got washed away so FAST……………..!!!


Chorus1:
I wanna break free from your desires,
And rise again to where I stopped………….STOPPED!!!!!

Chorus:
I wanna break free from your desires,
And rise again to where I had stopped,
Start moving without a reason,
To drag me and make me gone……

hell's a reflection away

“all soothed with the blessings of this wretched hand,
I deny the very look of his face
A trust thrashed down before I could tell,
Now you come and ask for my faith…”

WORSHIPPING,PROMISING,
AND THE CYCLE REPEATED,
ONCE YOU GET YOU FORGET,
THE ONE THING THAT I NEEDED…

EXPECTING ME TO BOW DOWN
TO EVERY PROMISE YOU MAKE,
AND BEAR THE BURDEN OF EVERY LIE,
EXPECTING YOU’D SHOW ME FAITH;

CHORUS:
Losing over and over again,
I expect you to change one day,
But the evil clinges you against my pain,
And you go one more step away…..

A BROAD ROAD,RIGHT IN FRONT,
BUT THE CANYON ATTRACTS YOU,
JUMPING EVERY TIME IN VAIN
I NEVER STOP WARNING YOU…

THINKING YOU’LL COME BACK ONE DAY
START TO MEND YOUR WAYS
LOOKING AT YOUR REFLECTION
YOU’RE A REFLECTION AWAY!!!!!!


CHORUS:
Losing over and over again,
I expect you to change one day,
But the evil clinges you against my pain,
And you go one more step away…..

Someday you’ll realize,
I wont be around
And now I am leaving you….
And now I am leaving you…..

“all soothed with the blessings of this wretched hand,
I deny the very look of his face
A trust thrashed down before I could tell,
Now you come and ask for my faith…”

CHORUS:
Losing over and over again,
I expect you to change one day,
But the evil clinges you against my pain,
And you go one more step away…..